missing a tag-along

starting this sem, panda bear (code name) keeps on tagging along (this is my term lang) whenever and wherever - where i eat dinner, when i study in school, and of course people noticed, and of course i keep on sayang "wala lang un." i just keep on saying na we're just friends, because i really saw panda bear in that context (possibly a little bit more than that). and people told me that well, panda bear likes me. and he admitted it a few weeks back. didn't know what to do. well, i decided to tell panda bear (two weeks after he admitted) that for now, i am sure that all i can offer him is friendship, but that i enjoy his company naman, pero un nga lang, there is a sort of hadlang, because if i'm gona have a relationship with someone, gusto ko siyempre that we have the same belief. ayun. after that talk, and a clarificatory talk few days after, panda bear doesn't tag along anymore. sure, we would still chat sa ym, pero he doesn't text me anymore, like before. he doesn't eat with me na rin, and hang out or study with me. well, kinda sad pala. coz i got used to him being around na rin, and ngayon biglang wala na. well... that's life :(

thesis nightmare

im in thesis class right now, and the discussion is about how to write your thesis, which is due one week from now. men! our class is required to submit a 50page draft already, while other classes are spending their time defending their topics. to think that we have nine other subjects to worry about! hayayayay! anyway, i know i'm just JJ-ing but try to understand, writing a thesis is stressful. not to mention i hvae some duties for my org pa. haayyy... and family things pa. nywy, gona listen to the discussion na nga uli.

kissing christmas break goodbye

christmas break is now coming to an end. coz today is the last day of it. hahaha. but thing is, this christmas (or rather last year's, since after all, it is already january) doesn't feel much like christmas. i remember when i was way younger, when the BER-months come, we would already have our christmas tree up, our house would already be filled with christmas decors, and everywhere one would hear christmas songs playing. now, christmas seems a little gloomier - maybe because of the economic crisis last year. or maybe because, as an adult (i'm turning 24 this year. yuck!) you tend to give more and receive less? come to think of it, i didn't buy any gifts except for the exchange gift/kris kringle, as well as for my inaanak. of course, it didn't help that I seem to not have any spare money to buy gifts. hehehe.
but, as we always have to remind ourselves, christmas is not about the festive atmosphere, or the gift-giving, but about the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ. and it's not just christmas that we must remind ourselves of this, but everyday. so long as we have Jesus in our hearts, it's always christmas :)

immersion round 2

i am part of the facilitating batch for this sembreak's internship program of the ateneo human rights center. so for two weeks, i was away from home. for four days, we were in tagaytay, after which we proceeded to socorro, oriental mindoro for the immersion proper, and lastly to puerto galera for the RnR. i will concentrate on the immersion part.
as a facilitator, our job was to make hatid the new batch to their community and in the middle of their immersion, to visit them. me and sir ry were tasked to hatid two pairs (meaning two sites as well). we left headquarters at around 2:40pm, rode the van until happy valley, then proceeded to walk, cross the river (like, 28/29 times!) and climbed the mountain. night fell when we were still on the road. we arrived in the first site at 7pm. so we decided to stay for the night, and to continue the journey the following morning. and this is where the torture session began. upon arriving, we were presented with banana which was somewhat similar in taste to fried saba or something like that. anyway, it was really good. the problem was that there were 6 of us and each ate 2 pieces lang ata. of course, that ain't enough. especially for an appetite such as mine. hehehe. buti nalang on the way, we bought skyflakes and a can of sardines. so to supplement the banana dinner, we had one individually wrapped skyflakes each and a piece of sardines. still not enough of course. in the morning, nobody cooked, buti nalang i brought nova, so that was my breakfast.
after "breakfast" we left for the second site. we crossed the river like 9 times i think. we stopped for a break, and sir ry gave me a piece of his energy bar. and then our travel up the mountain, as in dun sa daanan ng kalabaw. so maputik, madulas, and we even had to use a walking stick and rope just to climb up. grabe talaga. and to think that it didn't rain that day. buti nalang. otherwise super hirap talaga. halfway up, i took off my mojos since it kept on sinking in the mud. actually, hanggang binti ung putik. we arrived in the second site around 11:15, so three hours kami papunta. upon arriving, there were very few people. our lunch consisted of buko. imagine the hunger i felt! grabe talaga. going down the mountain, we travelled through a different route. but it was so slippery as well. in front of me was sir ry so i observed which areas he slipped so that i could avoid sliding as well. also, good thing that there were many "kuyas" who accompanied us. so going down, i held on to two of them. one on each side. hehehe. oh! one last thing. there were limatiks in the area going to and fro. limatiks are somewhat similar to leeches. they suck on blood. but if you take them out when they haven't bitten onto your skin, then good for you. well, i had a total of 4 limatiks, but none were able to suck my blood.
overall, going to the site and getting back was difficult, but it was a great experience as well. and super fun. so no regrets my volunteering to join the immersion as facilitator :)

sembreak's here, but still not much time to relax

final exams lasted one and a half weeks (from October 12 to 21). but i didn't get to relax yet after finals was over. coz i had to contend with my secreg paper and my torts digests due on thursday (October 22). nywy, i finished them at almost 1AM. by then, sabaw na utak ko, not to mention that i was soooo sleepy na. after all that was done, i slept of course. but sleep was not enough to make up for the lost sleep that i had to endure during finals. i know it's not healthy for our brain cells when we lack sleep, but much as i want to, it always seems as if i lack enough time to study, so where else would i take that extra time but to deprive myself of a few hours of sleep just to be able to read and finish studying the coverage? today (Friday), morning was basically a time to just be lazy, but by afternoon, back to my hectic sked. at noon, i had to do my groceries with my mom, even before i had my breakfast and lunch! that's because we have to use her credit card. after groceries, i had my delayed meal. after an hour, i went to binondo to buy supplies for my org, for the tagaytay part of the internship, and also other stuff that we were going to send to the communities we went to last year. after an hour of rest, i had dinner with friends/churchmates since Kim was about to leave for London. sadness actually. 2mrw (October 24), i need to buy more materials (notebooks and whatnot) to give to the communities. have to bring them to makati so that i won't have such a hard time later in the evening when im going back to makati with my stuff. and then, Kim's despedida is from 4-7pm. and then after that, as mentioned, im going back to makati. sunday morning - start of sembreak internship program. and then we come back on november 6 - friday before the start of classes. so basically, i have no sembreak because of the sembreak internship program :(

medyo masipag magblog

Here I am once again, blogging. Don't have much to tell really. It's just that I got nothing much going on here at home.
I was supposed to go to Catarman, Samar tomorrow to conduct a training, but then it got postponed (for the second time). It was supposed to be happening on May 23, but then our contact said that it would be better if we did it on June. And then they decided on June 11, since their classes start on June 8. But because of the Influenza A (H1N1) virus, lots of schools moved their opening of classes to June 15, and theirs did as well. So like I said, my trip got postponed to who knows when.
So, my second to the last week of vacation, I have nothing to do, except accompany my grandma to UST for her therapy sessions, watching movies, and reading novels.
But this last week is a bit different, especially since I was able to buy my Asus eeepc netbook. And I'm using it right now. And I'm loving it.
Since my eldest brother was here for the past week and a half, he copied all his movies into my netbook. So now I have almost half of my hard disk's memory full of movies from my brother. And that's what I've been doing almost the whole day yesterday, since my other brother told me that it's important to use a new laptop for three whole days. But aside from watching movies, my only use for my netbook is the internet, since school hasn't started yet. But I'm sure once it does, me and my netbook would be buddies, day by day.

last day at work

finally, i have come to the end of my apprenticeship. this is my last day here in the law office. as of this writing, i officially have one and a half hours left. that's because i end at 6pm. though i'll be staying here until around 6:30 before going home. but it doesn't help that it's raining right now. which will definitely mean more traffic. i just hope that when im waiting for that bus to take me to buendia, id still be able to secure a seat.
that's the difficulty in makati. at 6pm, eventhough there are a lot of buses, there still does not seem to be enough to take in all the people. which is why i prefer to leave a little later, at 6:30. by the time i reach the loading area for buses, there aren't as much people coz those people who are hurrying to go home have already gotten onto the earlier buses at 6. they prefer to get on the buses eventhough there are not enough seats to accommodate all of them. me? i don't like standing up. that's one of the things i avoided that is why i get up at 6am so that by the time i leave the dorm or my house at 7, there still aren't that much people riding the buses, and that means i get a seat. unlike if i leave earlier just in time to get to the office by 9, i would most likely have to stand up, which i really prefer not to. so, i just make a little sacrifice and wake up earlier.